getting over it

Ever seen the movie 'Office Space' (Jennifer Aniston, etc)? Well, my work seems to be parraleling certain scenes from that movie. Mainly, the conversations with Bob and Bob. I feel like I am Peter at times. I feel like I have 5 bosses to report to, which makes me feel like rebeling against my job in little ways rather than blossoming from their instruction. I feel like the only reason I get attention there is if it's negative attention, so it's best not to get attention at all, even if that means you neglect your duties. (I, generally don't do this, because I would feel guilty. But I know it's the case that if I just layed low, I would feel much more relaxed, and they probably wouldn't even notice.) Where's the job satisfaction? Must have been misplaced with my sock. My boss (the actual one), Is a nice guy, and for this, i'm grateful, but he does like to instruct your ear off. That God he doesn't have an annoying voice like Lumberg.

The other night at work, I snapped, as I predicted I would. At first, I just started to get angry, then, I started to shake and feel ill, I finally told the boss (well, actually, not the boss, just one of the pretend bosses) that I was sick of reporting to 5 different people, that I was sick of them telling me to do the same thing in 5 different ways, and that I was going to tell the next person who tried to instruct me to "go to hell". I don't think she was expecting this. In fact, I don't think these people have any idea of who I really am. Apart from maybe Emma and Lindsay. I think the rest of them assume that i don't really react to bad situations because i'm not intelligent enough to detect them. All the while, i'm comparing them to 'Office Space', wondering if i'm the crazy guy with the stapler who eventually burns the office down.

Since snapping, the bosses, all 5 of them, have gone out of their way to say how good I am at what i do, how the place wouldn't be the same without me, how they need me, etc.

I think they saw the stapler guy in me.