getting over it

If I told you the revelation I had in my car, you'd think I was nuts. But i'm not. I'll show you one day. Perhaps. That sounds ambiguous. I don't mean to sound ambiguous, I'd just really rather not sound completely bonkers. kay?

This week, everything seemed to have two sides - I went to see Josh Pyke, and realised I really like his music, (acoustic guitar with only his voice) but I almost fainted in the crowd because of the heat.

I made a few more friends, only to lose another.

I realised that loneliness certainly makes you do stupid things, but that resistence stops you from doing those stupid things, but it doesn't stop you feeling regret.

On the other hand, I occasionally felt suffocated. odd. You can't have your mars-bar cheesecake and eat it too, i guess.

I'm apparently too honest. Strange that I never thought that. (?)

I want to learn more about music of all kinds. it makes the world go round', doesn't it? seems like a rather important thing to be ignorant of.

Both my mum and my dad (at the start of this week on seperate, non-prompted occasions) loosely said that they don't worry about me and what I do in my life, because they know I always land on my feet, where as my sister, from their perspective, needs a little more help to land on her feet. How do they know this? I don't understand how my sister and I are different. In one respect, it's kind of a complement - of independence, etc, but then again...

(note elipses)

I keep having abstract thoughts. Like: do you think pools of water look up at the sky and wonders if it's looking up, or looking down? I mean seriously, wtf? I know I haven't been sleeping well lately, but there's no excuse to be... well, whatever - vague, i guess.

perhaps I should get some sleep instead of going out with friends soon... hm.

How was your week?