Friday, 11 April 2008
from A to B.
This morning, at 8:49am, I sat in the middle of the footpath on Lydiard St, crying. I'd like to say there was a brilliant reason for this. I'd like to say that I'm not an emotional person. But I can't. This morning, a woman told me that I couldn't do the course that I had planned my life around. The reason I moved was because of this course. The reason I got one good job and one lousy one. The reason i've felt strange for the past 3 weeks, but most importantly, the reason I signed a one year bond at the place i'm renting, ergo I cannot relocate myself.
*deep breath*
I'm trying to find the glass half full.
But I keep noticing holes.
After driving the 3.5 hours it takes to get from B to home, i'm trying to see it like this: maybe I wasn't meant to do that course. Perhaps that course was shit. Perhaps the people are unprofessional (no perhaps about that one actually), and perhaps I should spend the rest of the year writing, working and simply living, until next year, when I will do A,B or C. A being a degree in social work. B being a dip ed. C being some other brilliant idea that i'll think of in the spur of the moment like A and B.
Oh, and i'm thinking of quitting the vrappy job because the good job has asked if I would like more shifts and to be in charge on weekends. Perhaps.
*deep breath*
I'm trying to find the glass half full.
But I keep noticing holes.
After driving the 3.5 hours it takes to get from B to home, i'm trying to see it like this: maybe I wasn't meant to do that course. Perhaps that course was shit. Perhaps the people are unprofessional (no perhaps about that one actually), and perhaps I should spend the rest of the year writing, working and simply living, until next year, when I will do A,B or C. A being a degree in social work. B being a dip ed. C being some other brilliant idea that i'll think of in the spur of the moment like A and B.
Oh, and i'm thinking of quitting the vrappy job because the good job has asked if I would like more shifts and to be in charge on weekends. Perhaps.
# posted by Hil : Friday, April 11, 2008
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i think you definitely need to live. I also think you need to be careful not to continually think you're gonna be happy when something happens, rather you need to enjoy where you are at now - and it you don't, then you need to look at why. this is probably the pot calling the kettle black, so ignore me if you like.
I'm sorry about the course. I really am, I think its a dreadful shame.
I'm sorry about the course. I really am, I think its a dreadful shame.
you know i'm not going to ignore you. and it's rather strange you said "the pot calling the kettle black" because last night, I started singing in the kitchen (made up harmony), and it was "the pot called the kettle black" over and over for some insane reason. Maybe it's the transformers thing happening again. Very freaky.
And yeah, i've thought about the whole you-should-be-enjoying-now concept. Thus why I think i'm not going to force myself to do anything else for the rest of the year except write. I'd die if I couldn't write - even if I don't think much of the end result.
Also, my friend said that you remind her of clark kent. *grins* and don't you dare tell her I said that.
And yeah, i've thought about the whole you-should-be-enjoying-now concept. Thus why I think i'm not going to force myself to do anything else for the rest of the year except write. I'd die if I couldn't write - even if I don't think much of the end result.
Also, my friend said that you remind her of clark kent. *grins* and don't you dare tell her I said that.
well, you stuffed that one up didn't you!
I once picked up a chick who came up to me and said i looked like clark kent.
Another one did it on a completely different night and I ignored her.
I think i need to see a psychologist.
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I once picked up a chick who came up to me and said i looked like clark kent.
Another one did it on a completely different night and I ignored her.
I think i need to see a psychologist.
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